What I Don't Have

“Everything you have and everything you don’t have is exactly what you need.”

This is my paraphrase of a lyric from a song I recently heard on the radio. For me, this is one of the hardest things to come to terms with in my life. But understanding that you are exactly where you need to be and that you have exactly what you need to have is a huge step in being happy and content. Personally, my discontentment has nothing to do with the things in my life. I have no issues with my material possessions. I am content with everything I have and everything that I don’t have. For me, the problem is my discontentment with who I don’t have in my life. My friends and family are a wonderful support system and I couldn’t ask for better. But I have yet to find the man I am meant to be with. And I know that’s how it is supposed to be. It doesn’t really make it any easier to accept that I am meant to be alone during this time. I’ve been alone for so long that you’d think it would get easier. It doesn’t each day seems to be just as difficult as the next. And if it’s really true that “happiness doesn’t exist without someone to share it with,” I’m missing out on something pretty important when it comes to experiencing life. And all I can do is be patient and continue to ask “why.”